CONTEST - Deftones: The Vinyl Collection

[DEFinatelydeftones,fsho]

pictures when u get it???

[Vesanic]

Sure.

[RoyalDeftonicBoy]

Well I`d like to start by saying this... my Deftones memory is related with the song Simple Man... my birthday is on september 28th, and is my mom`s also... every year we celebrate our birthday Im used to play on the stereo the song, Simple man... my mom hates the Deftones cause Chino screams so loud and aggressive, sje says that they are so heavy, noisy, even she said once they were satanic hahahaha... so shes kinda like conservative person, but when she listened to this song, she completely changed her image about the Deftones and stuff.. she does not love them... but now she`s more tolerant to them, cause I say all meanings thats what I like to share... wish all the contestants alll the best! but I hope Warner can give me the boxset... that would mean a lot to me
Much respect!

Looking At shit like this Im glad you did not fucking win.Next time tell us about your dad being tolerant at you still using diapers.

[RoyalDeftonicBoy]

Pink Maggit

Deftones - Pink Maggit

I suggest you to listen to the song while you read my story.

As some of you may know, it is my all-time favorite track. Not just my favorite Deftones' song, but my favorite song at all. This song, as well as the whole White Pony actually, completely changed my life. Yes, the " their music changed my life " deal sounds pretty common, but if the way it changed my life is as common, then the Deftones have done something big to the world.


A couple of years ago, I was a stupid and impulsive teenager. In the era I'm implying, I was 17. Everything had been and was shit. Not from my never-satisfied-kid point of view, but objectively. My parents were my worst enemies due to all the traumas they were injecting to me and themselves, the place I was living at was dirty and filled with insanity, I was desperately looking for someone to love but I was only having random fucks here and there, nothing to be proud about. Sex for sex doesn't work for me. It's just a sample, I don't want to spread everything I've been through in my life because I do not want to sound like a whiner but I honestly wish as many of you guys never experiment what my life was until last year. But to bring the context in, I have to let you know that my life had the anatomy of a fiasco.

I even remember, I was so disgusted, fed up with everything I wouldn't even take care of my look either. I had very long hair and some really heinous beard. A bad impersonation of Daryl Palumbo from 2006 (See him here: http://a3.sphotos.ak.fbcdn.net/hphotos-ak-ash4/208821_158792820846945_100001486852510_330732_5179099_n.jpg). I wouldn't eat, I was skinny as fuck. I wasn't doing that on purpose, I was just not hungry at all. An overhaired melancholic skeleton...

But I didn't care, I seriously didn't care about anything anymore. For years, I had been looking for something transcendent, something that would take it to another level, that would make me say " Life is worth it, it's not so grey everywhere after all, there is something, this little something special that makes me glad about living ". But I was done looking for it. I was convinced it would never happen just due to it being absolutely impossible at that point. At the end of the year, I was skipping school everyday, instead of going to school and preparing for the upcoming final exams of my high school years, I would take the train to Brussels to get drunk with some friends in some dirty overtagged spot, it looked like the average white powder dealers headquarters. I would get drunk with Jack Daniel's (most importantly) everyday and try to forget about that grey, tasteless and meaningless existence. I was a seriously fucked up lost soul. I was never complaining to anybody because I hate that and I've never wanted to bother anyone with my problems, but still I was feeling it more than ever, I couldn't fake it, I couldn't go on... Every day would end with hardcore parties implying sex, alcohol and decadence. And probably vomit. I am not proud of that era at all. It's important to deal with regrets but I still have some troubles with that one...

And one of those days, after everybody fell asleep or collapsed in their own puke, the sound system of my friend was still on and someone had put White Pony to play. It was halfway through Feiticeira. I was a Deftones fan way before that, my love for White Pony was already here and wasn't a new born, but this is where everything happened to make it the most impactful record I've ever heard. The imagery, the lyrics, the violence/sensuality mix, the decadence, the depression that would obviously never end. From that moment, I closed my eyes and listened to the whole record. The feelings from that moment are yet to be correctly described. At some point, I felt like I was flying over the whole planet, at some other point, I felt like I was fucking the most beautiful woman ever conceived, etc, etc. White Pony is a masterpiece.

Then came on Pink Maggit. That's where I would be changed forever. The depression was carving deeper in my veins as I was listening to the song, I was more convinced than ever that this feeling would follow me forever and the transcendence I was looking for was an absolute naïve utopia. I cried. Silently, but massively. And at the same time, there was a smile on my face. The song was telling me:

" This depression is a part of life. Deflects and flaws of the world are overwhelming you and it's too much, but you must deal with it. You have to. You can. Melancholy will always be there, but you will manage to live with it and to feel satisfaction from it, because since you can find beauty in what's the mildest stuff to people's mind, since you've been through everything, since you know what you're going to experiment for the rest of your life, once you're back to school, you'll be the leader of it all. "

I know this is not the song topic and it's far from the lyrics, but Chino writes songs in order to make people bring up their own interpretations, and that's mine.

After that, I listened to it another dozen of times, and cried my unsatisfaction out. Then I slept for a bit. The next morning, I woke up, went back home, had a serious wash and finally got back to serious things. I wasn't less convinced that my melancholy would stop. I was just convinced there's a way to make it beautiful, to feel extremely good about it, to feel pleasure, delightment and relief. Deftones make depression beautiful, they're the proud sons of The Cure on that point, you know. I had to move on, to control my life, to make everything better myself since nothing, nobody would help me. And even though, like I said, I was still sure melancholy would be my daily bread forever, I started to... Hope.

Today, I'm finally happy. I'm living on my own, studying interesting things and I just recently got engaged to that woman I had dreamt of on that big night.

Melancholy is still here sometimes, I still feel like there's something missing, that I'm not flying high enough, but for the most part, I am glad, happy, and satisfied. Because of all the battles I gave my whole soul and body into, because of that slight hope Deftones created in me, because of all the work I've done all fucking alone. Thanks to Pink Maggit. Thanks to the Deftones.

Melancholy is my drug. I'm an addict. But I use it wisely. There are ways to.

I don't care if I don't win, if some people can relate to my story and make their life better, it would be the real victory.


Once again, I didn't want to sound like the average whiner, so sorry if this is what it did to some of you people, but when you speak with your heart, it'll probably happen too.

Im so glad my homie Romain won ! =D That is some deep stuff my man and Im very glad to have known you since 2009 and also very glad you pick yourself up and be the real cool person that you are ! Congrats man =D !!

[SomeOf]

Congratulation Vesanic 

[from_musings]

so i read through it since it won,and i think it was on another level when i compare it to the others i've read - very emotional. i really can't get the "i don't care if i win" thing together with the writing though, because i really feel you're aiming high and trying really hard to make it big and grand. but it's ok since the outcome was good.
however,if you step back and look what it really says it's: i've felt bad for a while (goes for a lot of teenagers) so i drank a lot alcohol,fucked women and puked (goes for a lot of teenagers - even happy ones) and yes, the record changed my life is common. but since you did it well i totally see how it won. my favourite after the penik's one that got deleted 

[Vesanic]

i really can't get the "i don't care if i win" thing together with the writing though, because i really feel you're aiming high and trying really hard to make it big and grand.

I really wasn't. It was an opportunity to share a Deftones-related story from my heart. If I won in addition, well yeah, it's awesome. But the aim was to share a story to which some people would relate to, hopefully. Trust me, the fact that some people appreciated it, related to it etc. gave me a better feeling than winning the box. It's hard to believe, but I really didn't care about winning. I said many times I didn't care about vinyls, so it makes sense, doesn't it ?

Besides, I said the jist of my story was pretty common, but how the song affected me was the main thing, really, that's what I wanted to express. My " bad mood " of those days, etc, it's the context, it's necessary to show precisely how important that song became, to me.

[from_musings]

it was a nice story, no doubt, it's just when I read it, I think that it feels like it is written as a contribution to win a contest, more than it's you who tell a bit about your view on pink maggit and what it means to you. if you hadn't bothered with winning at all, you could've stepped aside and write it after the competition to make room for those who wanted to win badly. which would've been extremly silly to me, but just saying.just trying to say that you probably wanted to win more than you admit. it is ok to say it!

it's cool to click like that with an album altough you heard it many times before. with my favourite records it has always been extreme love at first listen

[Vesanic]

just trying to say that you probably wanted to win more than you admit. it is ok to say it!

It would be okay it were correct, but it's not. I really don't care.

[defsteve]

It would be okay it were correct, but it's not. I really don't care.

Feel free to send it to me then. I will even pay for postage! Haha 

[Vesanic]

Such a gentleman.

[benzo]

congrats V.  i too am cool with you winning it based on all the content and uploads you bring to the site.  that said, i did find it very funny that you poured your all into that story after playing down the contest and basically ragging on some of the other contestants for trying so hard in the "bullshit thread".  plus...those are TEST PRESSES man!  i wouldn't expect someone that's not too into vinyl to appreciate that for what it is but it is a very cool thing none the less.  peace.

[Vesanic]

that said, i did find it very funny that you poured your all into that story after playing down the contest and basically ragging on some of the other contestants for trying so hard in the "bullshit thread".

I respect the honesty. Thing I was mostly " ragging on " is that most of them (not everyone) never post any stuff, any message at all, and here, out of nowhere, KABOOM, surprise, WILD POSTERS APPEAR. It's only that.

[Jesus2Chino]

Ah man, lets not end this whole thing like this. Vesanic won, he deserved to win, and he doesn't have to justify himself for winning. This thread was all about sharing Deftones memories with each other, and that's what it was. Whether or not people who don't post often posted in this thread shouldn't matter, as long as they shared a fond memory; and whether or not Vesanic felt winning the vinyls was important shouldn't matter either. It's totally not worth it to spoil such a cool thread--so we should all just pour ourselves a glass of whisky and shake each others hands.

Much respect,
-Matt

[Vesanic]

Thanks, Matt.