I don't know what I'm doing. I need those 3 days to completely be absorbed with it because what I do is going to be a major factor in the image of me he's created and he's an important person in my life and I really couldn't care less of what people think cuz my friends are all waiting to know what happens saturday night. I'm kind of left with nothing and I might as well work with what I have and if it's helping him in any way then maybe I'm doing something to help someone, I should be flattered to be doing something for someone on this kind of level. At least now someone needs me and to what extent that need is, I really don't care. I'm just so unsatisfied lately...with everything. Maybe this is going to be the high point for the week.
I'll say this again if I'm left with nothing I wouldn't worry cuz I've worked with less.
you know what they used to call girls that guys "needed" for sex? concubines..
just saying, dont degrade yourself man. tell him to go out and work for it, dont be a stand-by or a tool.
wait wait wait, how did he ask again?
Everybody is quick to assume he's a horny little asshole, but it might be meaningful. I know someone who wanted to lose her virginity to a friend because a lot of people have regrets about their first time and she wanted to do it with someone she'd still be friends with afterward. That makes sense to me. She said he told her he loved her...I dunno, he could be scheming, or this could be a genuinely meaningful thing to him. Anyway, Mazzy, if he's a close enough friend that you'd even consider this, he obviously needs you for more than anything to do with your body, you must have a strong bond..at least I'd think so since if you didn't care you wouldn't be so conflicted. Don't do it out of a false feeling, duty, ...homo-finding tool..IF you do it, it better be because YOU WANT to..or you'll regret it and that will alter your friendship.
Oh yeah, and lay off old guys, I see too many girl with old man crushes get their hearts broken, it's obvious before it even starts.
Anyway...
+ Listening to theSTART
+ I get to see them for the first time tonight
- By myself
